365-days

Day 328 Dec 31, 2009

Fri, 01 Jan 2010 03:23:27 +0100

Ah... a New Year! Resolving to loose the weight to get to 180 pounds, and to give Tim Hortons less money! Working on a vision board for the year 2010! I'll post a pic asap of it! It seems that stretching is the only thing I do spontaniously for my body, I really just want to improve my health, make it a priority. It's about becoming a bit more disiplined and routine, ha, I am growing up you see. (But I do find myself bothered by the word disipline and routine) I guess what I pray for most often now is the ability feel rested when I wake, and able to tap into and use the energy I really have within me! I believe it!

I need to get to a routine, a bedtime, meal times, exercise time at the gym! It just doesn't happen naturally for me ~ I think its about disipline and some really have mastered it. They get to the gym everyday no matter how tired they are, or to work no matter how late they stay up and how tired they feel.

I need to show up because what I'm feeling on any particular day is not relevant to my goal! In the end when I reach my goal, and know I showed up and did my best, thats when what I feel will matter! So some days will suck at the gym... but think of the paycheck! My responsibility to myself!

Day 344

Tue, 15 Dec 2009 02:24:42 +0100

Finally I am able to get into this site and write~ yolasite.com was broken! Slightly annoying! I have not gone to the gym. I have not kept a food journal. I haven't even been drinking the proper amount of water! I have been couch surfing, mesmerized by daytime tv, and smoking cigarettes during the commercials. I have enjoyed it too! My clothes fit... so I maintain my size easily right now. My effort is not matching to my desire to loose the weight, so there it is for all the world to see! I am pathetic! Apathetic really to the state of my body. The cartisian split between the body and the mind...is this what that author was talking about. ( I think I have the wrong author in mind, so I'll be vague here.)
Last Wednesday there was no weight-in because of the weather.

Day 353

Tue, 08 Dec 2009 03:42:53 +0100

Well, until today I hadn't completely screwed up and overate, but today I just didn't act with my own best interest at heart. Chocolate, yep, and fast food burgers for lunch and supper! Too much fat, carbs, protein, sugar, all of it! Too much! I feel bad. I knew getting to the gym and eating food properly would not come easily for me. I need to journal what I eat everyday to keep concious of it! I love how I feel after getting to the gym, but I waste my energy day after day battling my own mind! Too tired, not organized, I'll go later! Its a vius of the mind according to some PBS talk show guy I heard yesturday. Negitive messages, not fact based usually, excuses! I happen to be full of em!

So tomorrow is a new day! My plan is to go first thing in the morning to the gym and to write down what I eat for the day! And I am prepared to mute my own mind too! Its amazing....the power of our minds! I am willing! I just have to show up....lol, another PBS thing! Send good vibes!

Day 357 and 356

Sat, 05 Dec 2009 00:56:49 +0100

The last two days have been much of a blur. It has been entirely too easy to make my chores in the house a priority, and not getting to the gym. Tomorrow is a new day right!

Day 358

Thu, 03 Dec 2009 01:01:34 +0100

I went to TOPS Club tonight, I didn't gain or lose.....I stayed the same or TURTLED! The topic was motivation, it was a fairly ideal night to introduce this website to the ladies.
I just have nothing to hide anymore. Here I am, this is what I want to do and I need support, or pressure I suppose. I have posted my weight and my intentions and when I might ought to go the gym, and feel like being responsible or accountable is just too inconvenient, then I am going to remember this is my GOAL. This is what I want, and I know what I have to do and maybe somebody will have sent just the right little message that day that gets my head on straight!
If your wondering TOPS is an acronym for Take Off Pounds Sensibly....
www.tops.org to find a TOPS Chapter near you!

Day359

Wed, 02 Dec 2009 04:12:01 +0100

Tuesdays are my favorite! Hung out with Pete and Deizel today! Spent the day running errands and at Deizels doctor appointment! He got his 6 month needle! The appointment was at 1130am and we left at 1:15! Pathetic! I need my bed!

Day 360

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 18:49:54 +0100

I made it to the gym!
5 min. ~ warmup on the Eliptical trainer which nearly kicked me arse
15 min ~ on the bike
+5 min.~ cooldown

Everybody starts from where they are! I want to get there regularily first then amp the efforts up and increase my time after that! FIT~ Frequency, Intensity, Time! I remember that from a terribly long time ago! Is that still how it works? I was amazed at how many people were there on a Monday morning! At first I was kind of annoyed by it really! So many germs there! Deizel went to the playroom and fell asleep in there! Excellent! It was nice to have the time to myself and to give it back to me! I feel lucky!

Day 361

Mon, 30 Nov 2009 02:45:44 +0100

Tough start to this site, can't seem to get my email address link to work. No gym today, but the gym bag is packed and so is the diaper bag! Off to the gym tomorrow morning! I'm not sure if I have psyched myself up or out!

Day 362

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 17:31:46 +0100

Recovering from the flu today! I ache! I got the H1N1 shot so it wasn't that I would suppose...but just the same it was hellish! I drank gingerale so you know I was ill, I hate that stuff! So resting today mostly and tommorow is a new day! So glad I talked to Lori yesturday! She told me about the YMCA having babysitting available to members. I like the idea of being in the same buiding as my Deizel, and its affordable! Hope everyone has that available to them in their town, and knows about it!!
I've never made a web site before if you can't tell! I am proud that I have done that! I like that we are constantly in a state of learning...teaching I suppose too! Life is good eh!

Day 363

Fri, 27 Nov 2009 16:01:20 +0100

Well, I have the flu, cancelled the babysitter and down for the count~ No work out today! Broth and toast later.